Lauren

crazy_sparkles @ 2004-08-22T12:09:00

2004-08-22T18:03:11Z

My head hurts...too much thinking!!!

It should be illegal to be up before the sun

2004-08-11T13:07:40Z

Well I decided to get smart. (Haha, once in a lifetime thing for me guys, i should get a trophy or something!) Yeah, so I went out and bought a webcam. It was cheap too. So Stu got to see me for the first time in like four months yesterday. He seemed really happy, and that's cool.

Not too much else is going on. I can't believe its only wednesday. Last week flew by..and this week is dragging ass. Saturday night I'm going out with Mel for a girls night, and we haven't been out in a long time so it is sure to be fun. Wait, did I say fun? I meant F-U-N! Yeah, I know, i'm a dork. Plus its on a sat night, so I wont be tired from working all week..which is usually the problem when she drags me out friday's. Wait, did I say drag? Lol I meant encourage :D

Justin phoned last night. He's working out in the bush for a while, but this way he'll make lots of money...and then just like Rob he can buy me drinks when he comes to visit :D Tee hee, friends with money are a good thing. Specially after trying to budget for carla's wedding. At least I'm saving a couple of bucks with the dress...I'm gonna just use my grad dress..cuz its pretty, i've already bought it, and I know that Carla likes it. Yay for being one step closer to a year from now. Alrighty..of to work.

crazy_sparkles @ 2004-08-07T13:43:00

2004-08-07T19:39:32Z

Im kinda tired. Again. I always feel tired...whats up with that? Oh well. At least I dont feel as grumpy.

I got my kitty. Shes curled up on my belly..and in about two minutes we're both going to be asleep in the chair together....heheh she makes me happy :D

Rob will be here in about a month...so that will give me something to look forward to for the next little while..ooh and school is starting again soon..so I guess things aren't that bad :D

crazy_sparkles @ 2004-08-05T06:10:00

2004-08-05T12:09:49Z

6:10 am. Holy shit. I'd complain that its early, but its not. I've been up for an hour. I hate not being able to sleep. Usually I just have trouble falling asleep..and then I want to sleep in. But today I just couldn't stay asleep. I have a feeling that by 9am, 5 hours of sleep is not going to feel like enough..specially when I haven't had my typical 10 hrs every other night this week ;)

Oh man oh man oh man. What a week. My mom is driving me up the wall....but that's a whole other story...

Allright..maybe i'll try to get another half hour in before I have to be up...then again, maybe not. Man this long weekend thing is really fucking me up..is it thursday already? At least tomorrow is Friday...

crazy_sparkles @ 2004-07-25T10:06:00

2004-07-25T16:25:26Z

Oh man, oh man, oh man. This is the last drunken night for a long time...at least while i'm in a crummy mood. I spose it was a lot of fun...and if I hadn't been such a crab then it would have been a lot better. Well, I hope you had a good time at least Adam. It was nice seeing some people I hadn't seen in a long time.
As for today not much is going on. Just gonna help my mom out a little...and hopefully try and get a hold of Stuart later on. I miss him.
Saw the funny guy dancing and singing on whyte. Hahaha...that guy cracks me up, even while i'm sober. Tee hee.
Talked to Rob last night. Mom's in love with him...and thinks I should be too. Oh dear.
Note to self, NEVER EVER, under ANY circumstances EVER will I go back to cook county. Nothing good can come of that place.
Buddy boy roomate guy is getting kicked out this weekend I think. I've had just about enough...and Tammy has had more than enough. Apparently Jon has too, lol. At least we got another guy coming to check out the place. He seemed interested..but if he doesn't want the place then I'm going to blame it on the unpainted walls. They need to be painted, and soon. Allright, I guess thats it. I'm going to avoid trying being sick while i help my om install shelves. Fantastic.

crazy_sparkles @ 2004-07-21T18:53:00

2004-07-22T00:57:12Z

DOWNLOAD THIS SONG. Hehehe, this is my new favorite song of the week.

Oh man. The shit that i'm going through right now. Not the situations..just the emotions. I'm tired, exhausted actually. Frustrated, impatient, irritated. But i'm also happy and content. Its so weird.

Adams bday this weekend....and I plan on getting completly wasted. I need a good drunk. Besides I have to help my mom this weekend..and although I'm sure a hangover wont help..I dont know that much could make it worse. At least I will have had a good night. So i guess i'll be away from my house for most of the weekend..good for getting away from my new roomate..not so good for trying to phone Stuart, who I'm sure, will be busy anyways.

Rob's bday is tomorrow...so happy bday to Rob!

Meh, i think maybe i'll go to sleep now. I realize that its only 7pm...but there's not too much else i want to be doing. Later all.

crazy_sparkles @ 2004-07-18T15:30:00

2004-07-18T21:31:42Z

Its amazing how a little text message can make me feel so much better. Hehehe...he's been busy. I spose I understand. Meh...off for now.

crazy_sparkles @ 2004-07-04T10:01:00

2004-07-04T16:01:48Z

Well I started heading downstairs to get some breakfast, but there are people sleeping in my living room. Didn't want to wake them so I headed back upstairs. So now i'm hungry.

I suppose not much is new with me. Today I plan on going to Kingsway to do a little shopping. I also have to do some cleaning around the house, and then dad said he'd take me grocery shopping, so that's cool. Meh, ok, off to do stuff.

crazy_sparkles @ 2004-07-01T21:54:00

2004-07-02T03:56:20Z

Tomorrow is friday. Nice. And then the weekend. Maybe I'll paint this weekend, it'd be nice to get that room looking good.

So summer vacation starts for the kids, which means full work days for me. Fuck. July is gonna suck ass. The staff that I have to work with are complete dopes and shouldn't be allowed to work with kids. Its not fun working with kids unless you have fun with them, and the women that work in this section of the daycare enjoy standing around and doing nothing. Shitty. Oh well. Hopefully august wont suck so bad, specially if Stuart comes..that'll give me something to do ;)

I spose this month wont be that bad...I've got a friend visiting the third week of July, so that will break up the month nicely.

So i've been lounging around all day cuz i'm not feeling well. Now I dont want to lay in bed to try to fall asleep. I'm tired, but not tired enough to sleep. I think its more of a lazy and bored feeling. Maybe i'll wait an hour, and then try. Meh, off to do something slightly more useful than this.

crazy_sparkles @ 2004-06-28T09:54:00

2004-06-28T15:55:05Z

Dont want to go to work today. Really really dont want to go to work today. Oh well, not much I can do. At least I get thursday off. Countdown begins...34 more days. Am I gonna make it? Is this what I want. I dunno, i just dont know. Grrr I amuse myself over how much I sweat the small stuff. I really outta learn to just chill out. There's just so much crap I wish I didn't have to deal with. Its making me moody and bitchy, and I dont like it. OH well.

34 more days!! woot woot!

British accents are s-e-x-y.

2004-06-28T00:12:36Z

Well I'm feeling a little better. I had a little chat with two good friends of mine, both put a different perspective on things. I also chatted with Stuart. He gets holidays (he thinks) from July 31 till Aug 22. Yay! I can't wait to see him...theres a lot of things we need to talk about.

As for this evening..just having a BBQ with my mom, and swinging in the hammock she just put up. Its the coolest thing ever! Or the coolest thing for the next few hours anyway ;)

Aaron came over last night. Him, Tammy, Jon and I watched Badder Santa. Fucked up movie, but funny, very funny indeed.

I guess that's it. Just felt like stating that I felt better. Yay.

Anxiously awaiting the arrival of my prince.

2004-06-27T08:03:12Z

OMG I just want to scream. Funny how when one thing goes wrong, everything else goes wrong. Some days I feel like I was put on this earth to cause chaos in people's lives. Hey, wanna have a bad day? Just go be friends with Lauren for a few weeks, she'll fuck you over real good ;) I guess in the end it all comes down to the fact that you can't please everyone. We have the freedom to choose what we want to do and thought to help us see (some of the time) what consequences those actions will have. Of course you get thrown a curve ball every now and then, but hey that's life.

I hope I have enough sense to assume I'm putting my energy into the right things in life. Although with the way things are going, I'm just waiting for the bottom to fall out of the few things that I really hope wont.

Everything is just going so wrong lately...when are things going to start going right?

I wish three years had gone by already...

2004-06-26T07:48:30Z

So I'm a little lonely this week. Knowing that he's coming next month, but not exactly sure when is really starting to take its toll on me. I can't stop thinking about him being here..what we're gonna do, what its gonna be like, all the things that I want to say to him...it seems like lately thats I'll I think about. I really do wish he weren't so far away. I wish I didn't have three years of school left. I'm also a little curious about when I'm going to get to see him next...6 months from now? Like holy shit. Its only been 3 months (almost) and i'm going insane already....
I know its worth the wait. I just wish I didn't have to wait...

Caught daydreaming...

2004-06-16T02:56:11Z

I still can't believe that two months later and this is still what I want. Something about this just feels right. I've just been off in my own little world lately, and its a good feeling.

Not much new has happened tho. Been kinda addicted to chocolate tho...mmm chocolate.....

crazy_sparkles @ 2004-06-11T08:04:00

2004-06-11T14:01:47Z

Tammy has suggested that maybe he's found another girl. I dont like this thought. Especially when its friday and I wont get to talk to him till Sunday...if I get to talk to him at all. Fuck I should just shut my mouth and then I dont have to listen to this shit.

Tired...

2004-06-11T03:17:38Z

Its been a long day...just wanted to post real quick and show off my new icons. Hehehehe...no they dont have the cool flashing words..but since I did em, i figured they were pretty damn cool :D Check em out HERE!

crazy_sparkles @ 2004-06-09T09:46:00

2004-06-09T15:46:15Z

So I've officially given up on horoscopes. Not that I put much into them in the first place.....but yeah. No I was not happy yesterday, no I didn't cheer anyone up and no, I didn't hear from Stu yesterday. Oh well.

What did happen? I spent 2.5 hrs mowing the lawn. Then me and Tammy raked. Finally I was exhausted, I came in and went to bed. More mowing the lawn tonight b/c no, its not done. And that sucks.

Another day at work. Another VERY long day at work. Fantastic.

I'm tired. And I'm mentally exhausted. I need a nice long vacation...to England perhaps?

Relying on my horoscope...how sad :'(

2004-06-08T15:44:01Z

Well my horoscope for today is good..

Have fun today, Lauren. Put your worries aside and live this day as if it were your last on Earth. Keep a light and cheery outlook on life and don't dwell on minor mishaps. This is a day to enjoy the sunshine and keep smiling no matter what circumstances may arise. You will find that your good mood is contagious, and that pretty soon you will be the pied piper of good cheer and a positive attitude.
Don't worry if things have seemed to be a little vague between you and your sweetest love recently. The current astral configuration means that you will feel a lot more secure by the end of the day. Perhaps your partner will buy you a wonderful present, or write you a message that leaves you in no doubt about how they feel, or even tell you face-to-face.

Interesting.

crazy_sparkles @ 2004-06-07T08:38:00

2004-06-07T14:45:01Z

And so reads my love horiscope for this month...

Overall, this is a month of turning points for you. You have reached a point in the road where you stop, look back, see where you have been, and look ahead at where you are going. Then you decide - do you really want to keep going down this road? Or is it time to try a different road? Your mind will waver back and forth this month - several times. Don't pressure yourself into making a decision before you are ready. This is the time for you to review the facts and get advice from as many people as you can, before you take your next step.

That sounds about right. If the next month continues like this, I dont know what I'm going to do.

crazy_sparkles @ 2004-06-02T10:09:00

2004-06-02T16:05:31Z

I just can't stop thinking about him.

crazy_sparkles @ 2004-06-01T09:54:00

2004-06-01T15:55:35Z

Wow what a crazy week. I can't wait for the weekend so I can rest a little...oh well soon enough I spose. Aaron is getting sent to the states next tuesday for a few weeks, so I suppose that solves that problem for a little while. Now if only I can fix the other problem by the time he comes back...

Its going to be a long day today. I have to work all day and then I have to go to this course in the evening. Apparently I'm not allowed to work with out taking it. But at least after tonight everything that I need to do for this job will be done...at least everything that I can think of anyway.

Its Crystal's bday today...HAPPY BDAY!..and next time TELL ME WHEN HE'S RIGHT THERE!!! Lol.

I am insanely frustrated with my life right now. I can't wait for everything to sort itself out. Grrr..

crazy_sparkles @ 2004-05-27T10:04:00

2004-05-27T16:06:47Z

So yesterday I had my job interview. The actual interview went fine, it was getting to the interview that proved to be difficult. I was 1/4 of the way there and realized I had a flat tire, so i had to come back home, lock up my bike and then phone my dad to come drive me there. Turns out I was only 2 min late, but it was still stressful. As for the job, I think I got it, but I guess I'll have to wait till tonight to find out for sure. (They are supposed to phone about some training dates or something...)
So then I text msg'd Stu to bitch, and he didn't answer me. That didn't help. Damn guys.
As for this week and weekend, I think I'm doing something with Melissa tomorrow night, and I have my first aid all weekend, so I think I'm gonna try and do something with Aaron on saturday night. I spose that means I'll have to clean tonight...seeings how its prolly not going to get done this weekend.
Allright well I spose I should head off to work.

crazy_sparkles @ 2004-05-26T08:52:00

2004-05-26T14:48:28Z

I MISS STU!!!

I'm off to my job interview..wish me luck ;)

crazy_sparkles @ 2004-05-25T10:14:00

2004-05-25T16:15:18Z

So I figure wed thurs and friday are the worst. Monday and tuesday are definatly the best. And since today is a monday I am in a ridiculosly good mood. And yes, of course that has everything to do with Stu. I spoke to him yesterday. And I miss him. Oh well, one more week and itll be half done. Two months since I've seen him, and two months till I get to see him. I keep thinking that itll be weird when I see him, but I dont think it will. It might take an hour or so to get used to him being there...but I think it'll go smoothly. I just can't wait :D Oh BTW, on thurs and fri when I start to freak out again, do me a favor and just tell me to suck it up till monday, would you? lol. Later guys

crazy_sparkles @ 2004-05-21T20:59:00

2004-05-22T03:03:12Z

I'm still tired. I just want to go to sleep. But Melissa insists on doing something tonight..and since I'm not one to protest too hard to drinking on a friday night..i'm reluctantly agreeing. Besides, after this week has gone I deserve a good drink. Its not that anything bad has really happened...I'm just very stressed and frustrated. Its weird. But I dont want to get into that again. Anyway I'm off to go get ready..later all.